Watched Glee last night (duh). I cried myself to sleep. I'm so lonely, I haven't cried that hard in months. It's always there, and I've cried of course, but this was that gut-wrenching body-racking kind of crying, with the pounding headache and the most unattractive of all the crying.

It was horrible, I couldn't even go talk to my best friend. I needed to go just cry, I didn't even need to talk, I just wanted a hug or something. But she doesn't want to know about it. She'd just end up mad at me and not talking to me. Loneliness added onto more lonliness.