Blessed are the cracked, for they let in the light.
Friday, July 9, 2010
I continually fantasize about being beaten and tortured, because I hate myself much I wish someone would hurt me like that. A quick death is too good for me, and I can only damage myself so much.
I thought you were feeling better! baby girl, it's one thing to fantasise about torture, in a sexual but safe way, and another thing entirely to say that you don't deserve a quick death. Please tell me you are taking meds and getting help in Tas
I am, and the meds are helping, and I have a psychologist who I love. I cannot work out why I do this, though I have noticed these thoughts don't show up so much. I just, I seem to feel guilty all the time.
I go to uni. I doubt I will finish. My favourite subject is Philosophy. I love languages, reading, cooking and learning.
This is mostly me ranting and venting, as it usually is with blogs. I have depression and anxiety which leads me to some very scrambled and irratic thoughts and behaviour, so enjoy this insight. If you can be bothered reading it.
I thought you were feeling better! baby girl, it's one thing to fantasise about torture, in a sexual but safe way, and another thing entirely to say that you don't deserve a quick death. Please tell me you are taking meds and getting help in Tas
ReplyDeleteI am, and the meds are helping, and I have a psychologist who I love.
ReplyDeleteI cannot work out why I do this, though I have noticed these thoughts don't show up so much.
I just, I seem to feel guilty all the time.