I never want kids. Never. Never. Never. I feel so sorry for Nikki, I do. But I have never wanted and it feels like I'm the bad guy for stuggling with Koby. He hates me and won't cooperate, I've tried. Tried to play with him, offered to take him to the park, gave him a freddo. But he hits me, throws stuff at me, spits at me and yells at me.