Friday, July 9, 2010

I continually fantasize about being beaten and tortured, because I hate myself much I wish someone would hurt me like that. A quick death is too good for me, and I can only damage myself so much.

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  1. I thought you were feeling better! baby girl, it's one thing to fantasise about torture, in a sexual but safe way, and another thing entirely to say that you don't deserve a quick death. Please tell me you are taking meds and getting help in Tas

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  2. I am, and the meds are helping, and I have a psychologist who I love.
    I cannot work out why I do this, though I have noticed these thoughts don't show up so much.
    I just, I seem to feel guilty all the time.

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