So on Saturday, Casey and I were going to invite some mates over, then Daniel said the same thing and we were like "whoo house party!".

Now Casey is going to Jenna's, who was one of the girls meant to be coming here. I'm going to be here with a bunch of randoms I have never met, including Daniel's girlfriend, who is absolutely gorgeous, and so I am assuming her friends will be too, and oh yeah, fucking social anxiety and depression that these days is soley triggered by how much I hate my physical appearance.

If I lived somewhere half-decent, I would avoid the inevitable self-harm fest by going out and doing things I know would cheer me up and keep my mind off things. But I can't do that. No transport to anywhere.